It’s 9am and it already feels like half the day has gone by.
I’ve dropped Lilly off at preschool and usually around this time I’m rushing back home to catch up on housework, or running errands, or going off to lend my husband a hand with our business. Today though, I’ve decided to do something different.
I’ve realized recently that I’m always tired, always exhausted, and I never have time to do anything for myself. Being in the last trimester of my second pregnancy isn’t exactly helping with the whole exhaustion thing, but it’s more than that. I need a break, and I’ve realized that with a baby coming soon, This is probably the only time I’ll get to take that break.
So currently, I’m sitting at Panera Bread with a freshly brewed hot chocolate and a brand new book and this is where I’ll stay till it’s time to pick Lilly up from preschool.
Yes, it is finally happening, my little itty bitty baby is starting school this fall! Ok so maybe she’s not all that itty bitty, she is almost 3 after all, and it’s not actually school, just nursery school which is glorified daycare right? But school is school and I am excited! She’s going to go to school! She’s all grown up (kind of)! I get a few hours a day to myself every day!
Is it bad that I’m more excited about that last one then I should be? Look, I love Lilly, she’s my whole entire world, but seriously guys, a girl needs a bit of time away from the house and kids every once in a while to retain her sanity. Me? I think the number of times I’ve done anything without Lilly along for the ride is in the single digits, and that’s counting doctors appointments which don’t really count as ‘me-time’ last time I checked.
Suffice it to say, the start of ‘school’ is going to be an exciting new time for us both and I for one can’t wait!
This summer, as I may have mentioned once or twice before, has been more than a tad hectic to say the least. Always being on the go and always doing stuff may seem awesome and fun for a while but after a month or so of constant activity? Well let’s just say the charm wears off soon and you actually start relishing the odd day or so of having nothing to do!
So yes, I definitely need a vacation after this summer, though I suppose a vacation would mean more activity and moving around so maybe what I really need is a few consecutive days of peace and quiet and nothing to do.
A side-effect of constant activity that I didn’t anticipate was the mental haze that comes with it. Basically, when you’re always working or on the move, there really isn’t any time in the day to think. I like to think of myself as a wannabe writer and usually my head is always full of ideas and snatches of creative inspiration but for the first time in a long time all my head seems to be full of is a hazy cloud of exhaustion. Even when I’m actively trying to come up with things to write, all I end up with is the idea of wanting to write and nothing to go with it, and that really bothers me. Writing, or creativity in general, is an essential part of who I am and without it, I just feel slightly lost.
So yes, summer is almost over (hopefully) and I for one cannot wait for the dull routine of life to pick up again. Maybe I’ll have better luck shaking off this haze when my physical life is less demanding!
A lot happens during the few months of summer, a lot more than happens in all the rest of the year combined. Adventures are had, plans are made, bucket lists are tackled and new places are seen. With all that activity though also comes the ever looming mantle of exhaustion.
Physical exhaustion is an obvious side effect of all the stuff we’re doing and to be expected, but what I always forget about, and never see coming, is the emotional exhaustion that goes hand in hand with having too much to do and too little time to to it in.
So yes dear readers, it is about that time of the year again when I’m starting to feel more and more exhausted and am desperately in need of a long break. I don’t know about you, but I’m about ready for this summer to be over. There is after all such a thing as too much of a good thing.