So apparently, I’m having a mid-life crisis in my twenties. Way to stay ahead of the curve Sally.
Simply put I’m going through a phase in my life where it just seems like I have no control over anything, where too many things seem to be going wrong and life as a whole just seems to be taking some form of sadistic pleasure in seeing what else it can throw at me before I go bonkers (to be fair, it doesn’t really take a lot to make me go bonkers at the best of times so I might be overreacting a bit). All of these things (which I might blog about eventually if I want to bore my readers to tears) of course lead to a lovely state of constant anxiety and stress. Hopefully I won’t give myself a heart attack before I’m thirty (which might not be the worst thing because I’ll never have to go through the oh-my-god-I’m-turning-30 meltdown).
So all this stressing over what I have no control over got me to ask myself that what exactly do I have control over? What can I change in order to at least feel that I have control over something in my life? Get a tattoo? Nah, too permanent. Chop off my hair and go for an edgy new ‘do? Um, I need grief counselling if my hair dresser cuts of so much as an extra inch when I go in for a trim so no, I doubt getting a short cut will help me lower my blood pressure. Buy a flashy new car? No, I’m not that old. Get a nose piercing? Nope, not that young either.
After contemplating everything from taking up sky diving as a hobby to rearranging all my furniture, I finally settled on the one thing I might actually be willing to change around a bit: this blog of course! And what better way to take control than to change the blog name? What’s in a name? My sanity apparently. But am I ready for something as big as a name change though? Do I really want to do the blogging equivalent of dying my hair purple out of misplaced rebellion only to sheepishly dye it back to its original colour when I realise I don’t like it anymore? Dear God, am I actually giving myself anxiety over the very act that was supposed to help me alleviate stress??
I think perhaps my stress addled brains and I need to have a serious discussion on the pros and cons of giving myself a stress induced ulcer worrying about things I can’t possibly change. Also, if changing my blog name (which can be changed back at the drop of a hat) is giving me so much stress, maybe I should refrain from making any major life decisions just now.
So yes, maybe I’m not ready for the big guns just yet. I’ll just stick to something small, like changing my tagline. I doubt anyone will even notice that it’s different and I’ll get rid of my urges as well. Score! Now if only dealing with stress was that easy…
So how do you deal with stress dear readers?